Monday, May 31, 2010

Who God is in my Life… (Part 2)

This is a part of my testimony of what God has been in my life these past 2 years that I have already been at Mt. Zion.
I am going to share with you some ways that God has been real with me through my struggles at Mt. Zion. I pray that this ministers to you in knowing the fact that we serve the same living God and HE could be all that you want Him to be if you only let go and let Him do the work that He desires to do in your heart as well as in your life
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1. He is my strength- (Psalms 73:25-26 and Isaiah 40:31).
Through my 1st year more so than my 2nd year God truly was my strength to keep on going and not give up. My 1st year I had constantly thought about giving up the whole thing because I was struggling a lot and I didn’t think I could make it through another day. Those thoughts now that I know were from the enemy trying to get me out of Mt. Zion for knew what the fruit I was going to have by growing more intimately with my love for the Lord. Every time those thoughts would come into my mind about giving up I had those 2 scripture verses that I had mentioned above. And Psalms 73:25-26 is a worship song that we had sung constantly. It goes as it says but I will share with you the verses in how we had done it as song it goes like this:
“Whom have I in heaven but You? There is none upon the earth that I desire besides You. My heart and my flesh many times they fail but there is one truth that always will prevail.
Chorus- God is the strength of my heart, God is the strength of my heart, and God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever and ever.” It was a beautiful song…its funny because my roommate whenever I was having a hard day and I would totally tell her what was going in my life that I was struggling with she would always encourage me by singing and reminding me that song and she still does till this day! J I had truly learned to totally rely the Lord’s strength to carry me through. I haven’t arrived yet, but I am still growing and learning in Him like we all are!


2. He is my Friend that sticks closer than a brother. He was and still is always there right by my side. He will never leave me alone, amen! J
Song of Solomon 5:16- His mouth is sweet: yea He is altogether lovely. This is my beloved and this is my Friend.
Word study “Friend” it means companion, fellow, friend, husband, lover and neighbor.
In my 1sy year I also struggled with a lot of loneliness for I barely or did not know anybody at all except for my roommate. I was very shy and timid but the Lord finally had to break that through me and did a work in me. But even when I had made friends and finally felt comfortable around them especially with my roommate. She and I became really close when we were struggling with the same issues. Even since then I felt lonely and that is when the Lord told me to come unto Him and lean on Him. For He is the only one that will fulfill the loneliness in my heart. Yes, a friend might fulfill it or satisfy it for a while but the Lord showed me and told me that He is the only one that will be able to be that friend. Who won’t turn your back on you or talk behind your back or even betray you. No, I won’ do that to you for I have been in the same situation and I do not like to see your heart broken. This is what my Friend up above in the heavens said to me. He is the Best Friend that I ever had in this world. He is the only that I will need for He is the one that satisfies, amen! J
3. He is my Comfort!
I experience Him being my comforter when my grandparents passed away. I don’t have a verse or word study for this one but umm it was a really tough experience. It was so weird because the Lord prepared me for it. The reason I say that because this all happened after I flew back for Christmas break when I saw them. I remember very clearly with my grandma (dad’s mom) how the last time I saw her before I flew to Mt. Zion was when I said my good byes she held me a long time. She cried and I got teary eye for she did not want to let me go, and I knew she was crying. It was hard to have seen my grandma cry for I hadn’t seen her cry before. Of course when we got back home I cried with my mom. But anyways, when I arrived back I had sensed that something big was going to happen. Sure enough I got the call saying that my grandpa had first of all passed away. I was already having a hard morning that day and it was worse when my mom told me the news over the phone about my grandpa. It really shocked me I thought I was going to pass out because it was unexpected but then I just started to cry on the phone with my mom when she told me. I cried a lot through that time had a lot of questions in my mind that I asked God why?
But He was so good to me because through out all of my doubts and questions He still carried me through that time as well as the others when they passed away. For He is a good and faithful/loving God who cares for His children. I couldn’t have don’t it without my sisters there encouraging me and comforting me through prayer. I knew that my parents and other family members and friends were praying for me through these hard times. I appreciate their prayers. It was a comfort knowing that some family and friends were praying for me. I thank God for them every day, seriously!


Ok I think that is all that I will share with you. There is so much more that I think I could write a book! LoL! But God has been and is continuing to do a work in my heart and life that I am so grateful and thankful for. Like I said before He could do the same for you as well if you only let Him in and do it. Yes, it is hard for it is a deep work that He does within you heart, but in the end you will see the fruit. And then you will realize in your heart and mind that it is all for the good…it is also worth it all.
Remember what God has called you too He will see you through, amen!
My next blog may be on one of my sermons that I had to preach for that is one of my requirements! I pray that this all made sense and I hope it ministered to you to see what kind of God we serve which is a living God, amen! J
Thank you for taking the time to stop by and read what the Lord has done in my life! God bless and I encourage you to follow the Lord wholeheartedly with all your heart, for He is worth it all!


4 comments:

Leti said...

Angie, to read what you have been through brings tears to my eyes. As a Mom, I so desire to "protect" you, yet, not at the expense of your walk with Christ.

I love you sweetie. Your God and My God is able to see you through to the end. I am so proud of you and my heart rejoices at what God has done and what He will continue to do.

Continue to follow hard after Him, for indeed, He truly is worthy of that and more.

I love you and I love reading your posts.

Mom

Unknown said...

Wow! What a blessing to read how the Lord is working in your life! He is so faithful and does care so deeply for us. It is awsome to read how the Lord is growing you up and teaching you the hard things, but most of all, it is awsome to hear that your are receiving His teachings with an open heart. God bless you, Angie!

Anonymous said...

Angie, I love what you wrote..
thank you!!!
lulu..

Angie said...

Thank you all for stopping on by and leaving a comment for your support! I appreciate and I love you mom and Lulu! :) God bless and thanks for stopping on by!